Monday, May 02, 2011

you laugh to keep from crying

Laughing at that Feministe nonsense


Straight pulled something.


I know that the appropriate thing to do would be to give a deep well reasoned analysis of whats going on but


Y'all I'm trying to real with myself for May and I am not that good of a person.


I am also " irrelevant" so I'mma let it rip.


This is not about call out culture. This is about the shift in technology and the rise of web and community based interaction in the blogosphere. This about not being able to dismiss out of hand the concerns of people you used to just cut off


This is about a post about " filling the gaps" kind of magically and mystically skipping over much of the shit done to fill the gaps to make a point.


It's strawmanning and honest to god forgive my foul language privileged handflailing bullshit and it's finest .


Using the concerns and language of marginalized people and their interactions withe ach other to try and recast every fucking nasty and mean and willfully privilege omitting ( I just didn't SEE THAT ) step.


I love that it's turned into oh my god why does her publisher/publicist SUCK and no one is talking about at all IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM



  • Why such a book might not be able to pick up a more mainstream publisher?

  • What kind of privileges go into the process and " friendships" go into those connections?


And let me cause I'm a whiny fucking diva and I'm owning that shit .


Point out that this book was mentioned on the SAME FUCKING DAY in the same thematic as a post by Latoya who decided to omit my name due to personal issues when we've interacted personally ONCE and online usually around her very problematic handling



  • of work of people I love not being diverse enough ( Women of Color Beauty carnival

  • BOOKS ( I am gonna hernia something I SWEAR) and why the publishing of such was not the be all end all and why the " good work " wasn't enough to justify

  • Me not being able to say in a way SHE like what I "wanted" because I was so obstreperous

  • oh and her decision to omit me entirely from a " life and world view changing even" that happened to me because essentially she doesn't like me ( yep I said it twice)


and ya know what I'm gonna say to that


IT DOESN'T FUCKING MATTER ! BECAUSE IF I AS A WOMEAN CONCERNED FOR WOMAN CARE ABOUT VIEWS THAT ARE UNDER REPRESENTED AND THIS BOOK DOES THAT WELL ...


I BETTER GIVE IT SOME GOOD ATTENTION!



If this accomplishes the work I claim to be for , well ic an take a minute form my list of bougois activities ( and save me the but but self care fine great do you but people all live you make priorites)


set up a fucking feed reader or better communication


To DO THE WORK I CLAIM I AM FOR.


It's not that you choose or choose not but that you'll write screed after screed about it and


FAIL


and no the fact that it wasn't given to the SPEAK CD! ( yeah you know the first media project sponsored by AMC , sold out , in feminism journals etc etc)


or the fact even in that post a book/book proposals by ONE OF THE PEOPLE SHE DID MENTION WAS UNNAMED


Mind you I expect this to be rebutted by teh good work of the intensely fucking "borrowed " Yes Means Yes


or the WELL WE MENTIONED ONE POST ABOUT SPEAK


or Blackamazon you're a bitch we don't like ( repeatedly)


if it is so rare and so NECESSARY


if I can suck up faux news to make a point


YOU CAN DO THIS


versus the continued career pimping of SPEARCHUCKING MONKEY WRITERS!!!!


and


this was on a NOT SMALL SITE


sorry I don't go there often but


COMEON SON!?!


Racialicious isn't small


Damn sure wasn't small when you were looking for shit to shut up protesting WOC in 2007-9


and why


* long as details about privileged life* leading to


essentially I couldn't be bothered


That wellI will read NYT first!!


Because the paper that makes you sound cultured even as it steeps it self in rape culture YOU CLAIM TO FIGHT


is more important than staying up on one of your supposed inner circle


( and trust me the back channel emails are a flying SWIFT AND FREE)


so why NOW ?


Because earlier they could do what they're USED to doing


which is ignore circle the wagons shut up, whinge about the HARDNESS and keep it moving


except now in a culture where let's be honest we're doing a lot of this on smartphones and newsfeeds and insta papers( another reason why Um ID ont read that doesn't fly)


the issue is that bunking down and declaring radio silence doesn't work


Folks can shut you out and get their shit elsewhere


they cna hold you accountable and undercut you STRONG


and for folks who've based their ACTIVIST personas on being privileged, and famous and hard to reach


how in the hell do you function in a media climate that puts a premium and a media community on being CONNECTED AND TANGIBLE AND IMMEDIATE


and in such a climate what do you do when you keep getting called out for being well


SEVERELY AND UTTERLY LACKING


in ways both about accounatblity


and also sometimes about just assholery


do you link to peopel talking about it who are in it and talkinga bout it according to marginalized communities ( NOPE)


start thinkinga bout what community and this culture has meant politically and what it means that we are still here as feminists liberals ( um did you read my post on new york shit)


talk about extensive conversations that have happened around that ( well no because your newest and youngest has fucked that bad boy up royally)


or do you lump them together under the second half steal the nascent language around it to replace the old charge of policing and reposition yourself as struggling to come to grips and now a lone voice of reason?


DING!



And why does this unload my mega bitch and sarcastic ROYALLY?!?!


Because this discussion on policing call outs triggering is


REAL SHIT , It has lead to awful experiences and exchanges, pull outs and loss of energy. It is being handled RIGHT NOW in a very real way at CrunkFeminists


it is something that needs examination because dear god how do you deal when you only have so many spoons, teachable moments, racial tension headache pills , appropriation lectures in you


and the person


across from you who you kinda honestly want to tell to go the fuck away


is dealing with the real shit too


when we're trying to plan how to build shelter


with two paper clips a napkin and half a coconut


and it's ENRAGING


to see it use dto cover up a kind of automatic laziness when it comes to work that isn't yours , or from the people you think are important


or anything that might have you having to go you knwo what it's nota bout me or my work or my feelings so I might have to shut up and being PROACTIVE about doing well


it's now our fault for eating our young or some shit so we need to back off


um i'd be less nasty if i hadnt predicted this in 2008


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Oh and for all of you who think this work is IMPORTANT BUT THE BOOK IS SO HARD TO FIND


HERES THE GODDAMN LINK!