So Indulge me

( and if you have already I'm working on thank you's)

I am still trying to fundraise for Portland ( and if you have sent please please please forgive thanks are coming) but also survival

It's turned into a crapshow of random expenses and crazy. And it looks like I may not make if I don't It goes towards providing Little Light with a awesome sauce gift to begin her fabulous married life, keeping me afloat and donating to causes.

No lie it's like 700-800 bucks so while I'm hopeful I m also being reasonable.

It's a deeply saddening time in the world so I understand if it's not possible

So if you can click my paypal pleases do and if not please indulge and send me awesome vibes

On Not Hurting Your Brand

You can find a thousand evils in the world, and just as many people pontificating publicly on how what you are doing to change them won’t work. That is to say, too many people spend too much time acting in the service of justifying their own inability to do much, aside from talk.

Hope matters. Vision matters. Heart matters. Action is meaningful. Intelligent-sounding pessimism is not.-- nezua

So I school visited on the 19th at a high school .

It was called " Ain't No Such Thang as an Internet Gangsta"

It's strange sad for me to school visit , because education , theatre ,dialogue are things I have done for a living ( Yes I am 25 I am so old) but now have harder times getting access to because I don't have a book deal, or free time , and usually go in asking kids to be defiant little

revolutionaries

I taught two sessions by my lonesome and team taught two with the dashing chevalier Lower Manhattanite !

Here is my schematic that I used

Now I didn't get to talk on most of it , but as you can see it was about the internet and it's consequences.

Adults were very excited I put the fear of god into kids about facebook. Which worries the hell out of me , because it seems very quietly and stealthy . We have accepted the idea of trying to create ourselves as brands and not as humans. It's been on my mind more and more because there is a distinct lack in some areas of any critique of it .

And that's why I included the consequences bit . Because being online , being in any way connected to human beings has consequences and responsibilities .

To our reactions,interactions have consequences because they are connected to our real life human selves.

You are not for sale. You are not a brand , a logo, a catch phrase or a collection of " stuff" especially stuff in text boxes.

Facebook's privacy issues are important. Not because of the power of your " info" ( though information is powerful) but because someone who has no idea of anything but a super privileged life, is using your information to make billions, while doing his level best to create a culture where in if you don't participate you are subject to unfair moral , social and possibly financial ramifications.

All of which are only supported by the ignorance of privilege and nonchalance of hypocrisy.

In making a world where everyone is or isn't . You sneakily try to create permanent reasons for creating an underclass. People who don't do what " you want" are emphatically WRONG . There is no complexity , no learning curve, no reason for this ostracize , just " a bad brand"

And god forbid we mess with the " brand".

This is othering for the internet age , protect the brand and destroy anything that can't get the internet access or won't use it to fight back .

I bring you Sarah Palin is / is not/ oh who the fuck cares feminist

Author aside , lets be honest here. If Sarah Palin was Sam Parsons ...

this person would be a disaster for the rights of women everywhere in America. And that's before we even get to the reproductive rights bit.

The things she DOES makes a disaster , she could call herself a purple apalossa stallion for all I care.

So why do we care? Why aren't we imagining a way around her and those like her ? Why is this an asbomination and how do we DO and imagine a world differently for ourselves? What is the world we are fighting for to be so excited about her labeling.

AND BE SPECIFIC?!?

But what is happening instead are round and rounds about why the word needs to be protected.Mind you most of the people up in arms about the thing will proceed to blanche and hem and haw about be attached to anything that this " word" their protecting does.

Then it turns in to why we can't change " certain people" and why their special shiny brand needs to be protected.

Brand Management stops action cold. Brand Management ( including your personal brand like anti-racist , feminist, progressive " race man")

You get the Brand and

IT

IS

ON

What we DO becomes subsumed to What we ARE or see ourselves to be ( or call ourselves). And if what we have to do challenges our comfort in that.

Bring on the long sollipsistic conversations and goal post moving because we don't want to actually have to change

Newsflash : We may have to do a WHOLE BUNCH OF DIFFERENT THINGS.

We may have to try some and fail . And not just kind of fail but go up in bright shiny firey deathballs of " WHO THOUGHT THAT WAS A GOOD IDEA?!?!?"

That doesn't mean we turn every single question of our intent or actions into "haters" but it DOES mean that when we do something we have to be present for it , in the moment and

WILLING TO ANSWER TO AND FOR IT.

And yes having discussions in ANY form ( including the web fam) is doing something . As long as we are talking about truly changing SOMETHING, the way we do things , see things act , of truly moving ourselves FORWARD.

Navel gazing complacency STILL supports the system

The worst racism is perpetuated not through intent, but through thoughtless, unquestioning adherence to old, bad habits. We always need to ask ourselves where those habits come from, and whether it’s a good idea to keep perpetuating them. We need to ask whether they hurt more than they help-

That do me applies to so much more than racism

Brand Management allows pithyness and half formed ideas to pass for intellectual engagement.

It's point and laugh as social order.

Your text box, your click box becomes the level of necessary engagement.

Sarah Palin's feminism/ your right to privacy/whether a boycott will work or is " right" becomes the farthest you have to go to engage an idea.

We NEED to know where Palin is , because if we had to engage her ideas ? If we had to look at why she was so popular , at what tactics she used at why they are successful.

We might not like what we see in the mirror. We might have to shut up and listen, we might have to admit that there is more stuff there than just " Caribou Barbie"?

IF we sat down and boycotted and yelled and truly sat with figuring out why this BP thing is a fuck up of insane proportions we'd have to ask

Where else are they?

Why is it so hard for some people to act ? Why can't they just not go to Walmart ? Is it really that tight

Why aren't they in danger of being shut down

and how in the hell did this happen?

And if we looked at facebook and the internet ?

We might have to ask why everyone wants so much to have a brand and is advising us to protect it instead of leading lives and being human.

and acting humanely , that is a power a brand does not have , a corp does not have .

We would have to look at what we are selling and ALLOWING to be sold, who we allow to sell it and to what end

We can fight over words and swear that once we have them it means we can talk and talk forever

or we can listen

attempt fail

and try again.

At the end of the talk LM the creative mastermind said " no one is asking you to be radical activists"

I said " Speak for yourself I am "

I want them to .

I want them to be radical in the idea that every single moment , word , and action is bound not by a desire to brand or market, to fulfill someone elses vision but to ENVISION a world that comes with the full power of your humanity. And the sheer light we can make when it is engaged together ,

It'll be yours no matter what facebook does, what Palin calls herself , and doesn't need a marketing scheme.

Won't have a cool logo but some how we'll manage.

I would give....

up

all hope

of ever being seen as beautiful
smart

deserving.

go to bed every night cursing nappy hair and praying to white jesus

hate my tongues

never wish for love

wind

bootstraps round my "lazy" hands till the

leather left lines in my bone

long

Long after they cut through my skin

sinew flesh

slice skin every night

from wrist to elbow

remember pain is my birthright

never be so sensitive as to disturb you with my existence

give every word at the altar of your system

let you have all the money

Glory

fame

keep my eyes from rolling

everytime you proved me right

swallow spit

saltwater tears

swallow my hater horrific tongues

be Venus

and Jezebel

and Sweetthang

believeing the space between my thighs was nothing special

sacred

holy

just

a

lab

a circus

a freak show

Mamie

Angry Black Bitch

agree my home is wasteland

my people worthless

be here to entertain

You

worship no god you didn't approve of

step into the path of oncoming traffic

even if the rest of the sidewalk is clear

press

and

clean

keep my babies quiet

as church mice and obedient

go raise yours the minute

you wanted

make them entertain you

let their foibles and crimes be on

your news

submit them to your microscope

if it

just

meant

that

you never seem shocked at how much

We love them

You could have EVERYTHING

if no one said

I should be expected

to lie down

my

babies were unsafe

if

burned baby flesh

in the dead of night

if strangers and gun shots

and
FLASH

BANGS

were enough

for someone to be sorry

first

FIRST

that a baby died

and

not

that

you

don't get

to

live

the dream

country that houses

my

nightmares.

but

I do

I bootstraps and open legs andbroken hearts and crisscross arms and hate myself and bleed and weep and pray to white jesus with

my brown/red/yellow whatever color that don't describe me skin

and live in your dream nightmare

I would give up

but you take our babies from us anyway

Random Thought

While every woman does not go to college.

Every woman will NOT be in college at some point.

NO woman spends her entire fucking life in college so tell me why so much of feminist energy is directed towards identifying women as college women.

Not that it's not important but why aren't we jut as vigilant about highschoolers and endowing THEM with incentive.

so why ?

Why Am I Listening to This White People Shit?

" " So I sat there[....] thinking WHY AM I[....] WATCHING THIS WHITE PEOPLE SHIT"-mine wifey

and let me tell you a more perfect description of art and culture and cultural right now , there is NONE. My wife basically compiled what looks like half of the next four years of my academic life into one sentence. The other more important half being why AREN'T we watching all of this other AMAZING SHIT over THERE?

White People Shit for the some what snark( hey snark helps with my RAGE and snark is possibly the ONLY way I'm getting through this one) will now be labeled WPS but broadly defined

WPS: The deep and unnerving perpetuation of co-opting , masticating , and expectorating , other people's culture heritage and life circumstances , through the veil of irony and or the class privilege of " SERIOUS ARTISTIC/SCHOLARLY/INTELLECTUAL/EMOTIONAL production or discourse, while conveniently avoiding any and all responsibility, integrity for any non " intended" results.

AKA If it's well received it was so all your idea. If it's poorly received you didn't mean it not your fault.

It's especially well versed in liberal " hip" cultural production where everything is postmodern and therefore can not be bound by convention or decency or some shit like that. What's most interesting abouti t is that it manages to transcend privilege in it's own way.

Because it demands to be seen as flouting conventions, while luxuriating in the pathways those structures have paved for their art .Financed by the producers social class , status , and or privilege to access.

Example : I have a four octave range, a natural barrel chest , a face made for resonation and the mouth of an angel. My voice is dipped in platinum ( all of these are quotes about me not said by me ). The window on me ever plumbing the depths of my talent has about 3 more years, I'm honestly only hanging on cause I have as much training as I do.Why didn't I persevere ?

Besides ( I know don't die of shock ) not actually wanting that much attention. Art at that level to be done properly

IS SWEET BLOODSUCKING CHRISTMAS EXPENSIVE

You invest in doing art well, in practice , in sweat, in time . And that includes writing, and studying , and while it is often wrought with needs for divine inspiration. And often FEELS like Zeus hit you with lightening or Oshun smacked you with a machete.

You think about it,, you think and pose and generally annoy the ever loving mess of everyone in ten foot radius about it.

So this : Amanda Palmer in GENERAL ( and ug this hurts cause I liked the dresden dolls and love LOVE me some of Neil Gaiman's work and he too is having his own brand of SPECIAL)and her review at feminist review ( fair warning I am thinking of writing for them I just haven't gotten back to anybody about anything since a recent panic attack)

Just no. I chose that link specifically because I wanted to get right into what most pissed me off and pisses me off about WPS.

It's entirely excretory, even when it's GOOD. The main purpose of it isn't to convey anything but to prove how twee and precious one is, without having to back it up or engage in basic reasonably cogent LOGIC.

and the review yeah .

How can I not ve a complete asshole.

IF you can not be arsed to treat someone's opinion about the way media affects their life with at least basic INTELLECTUAL HONESTY while trying to trot out teh same damn tired " BUT THE MAN GOT AWAY WITH IT " psuedo cry. Step away from your damn keyboard. The paragraph is in addition to being dishonest , unnecessary. It missrepresents the actual discussions. It automatically using BARELY coded language implies that people who might be offended by it is " hysterical" and it casts palmer as a victim when

She " only" made racist " ironical" jokes , was nasty , rude , and ableist while hiding behind her able body white skin "artist" perogative.

( and if you bring up she's shedding light when my simple ass can't find one link to AN ACTUAL DISABLED PERSON CHARITY or any inclination that this is anything but entitled musically talented WPS)

So yes if that's what you do , you aren't doing something right.

And never forget to mention as of yet Jason Wembley ?

Na meking a regular rassclot of himself on twitter.

Bt shhh tin pan alley and some other dumb shit.

If you want to address the musical things do so , but that paragraph isn't even remotely related to the project it's a nasty way fo setting up anyone who challenges the project as a mean harpy.

And the comments moderation , just no . NO the reason " brigades" happen online is because PWD have developed good networks and when something is that vile from supposed allies . YEah words are said.

But lets be honest here WPS is art that insulates itself from all critique by prizing abstract code words like " clever" and " witty" over reality honesty or often times

don't get me wrong , having liked the dresden dolls. I have no doubt it's well executed and that's enough but

when using this kind of appropriation , it goes quickly from ANYTHING to do with the actual art to

the "right" for " art's/liberation/argument's/intellectualism's " sake to plunge, plunder and invent whatever the hell you like o

While ignoring the actual existence of REAL PEOPLE going through it cause of your precious art/feelings /search for truth.

It allows you to define how you would like to be talked to because you're an artist/activist? so much better than they are.
So watch your tone

( real talk if someone said that to a loved one of mine where I could hear them?the foot in ass would be heard round the damn world)

aka. WPS. In the case Able Bodied WPS.

Except specifically in case with disability.

This isn't just a case of disagreement.

It's of bullying.

of infantalizng

People's spoons are being stolen so , others can see if they can play them on a lark

And it's not easy , it's not .

Because it should not and never devolve into pick on the most privileged person in the room or in the convo.

( and I admit I tend to be more good in letter of the thing than spirit of the thing. I am EXTRA careful not to on blogs and to focus on actions . But not out of actual human concern but out of an attempt at non hypocrisy. which I often fail at)

but to be meanly blunt, the language of fairness and care is extended to people causes and yes sites , who claim progressiveness while as harshly and as stringently as possible throw people on to the tracks and under the tank

and often times the sheer emotional/cultural bankruptcy and dishonesty and being treated as a thing of to be consumed

to be discarded if your personal pain does not fit the "storyline" of the needed argument

not for an idealogy but the right to hold on to doing WPS, often with out any real POINT.

and it's reaching a very stressful point as activists and people concerned with feminism.

There has to be some deep consideration of why declaring large swatches of women, unfit and monolitic and discard has ANY place in social change.

Especially since critical mass and alliance building IS THE ONLY WAY TO ACHIEVE results.

And more importantly because it is ( I demand you read ALL OF THE NEXT LINK)

STRESSFUL

it is fucking destroying to our great minds our up coming minds , our elders
our thinkers.

To our activists and their hearts this is beyond soul destroying, not to mention physically demanding , and thsi is in " progressive media/communities"

and we need a much better reason for why we are okay with letting THIS PERPETUATE than a side vanity project of someone who has a really iffy understanding of Brecht

So yes no matter how good it is when it is an in your face and dismissive and for such little reason

Yeah when asked you need to tell me

Why am I listening to this white people shit.

WHo not WHAT

I look illegal

disabled

angry

angry
ugly
fat

and stupid

cause i have been all those things

at various times

but when you say my name THAT is WHO not what but WHO you are talking about

Where My Air Has Let Me Be At

So i have a tumblr and I use it to think about things in snippets and my blog where in i ruminate heavily and

it's murky at best.

I have been keeping snippets to something I wanted to respond to for a couple days becuase I'm writing my artist's statement and grad school apps and and

I'm going home to see my dad for the first five years and haven't been home in 20.

SO suffice to sya your amazon has issues

and the stuff i keep on tumblr has me waning to right but the ADD in me has been rather strong.

I keep my tumblr for my more " passionate" rantings its small and quick and it's on my phone , but I also try and keep my personal internet people directed stuff there now.

Because while full of sound and fury, they don't mean much because to be an ass the " specific person shit" I hold onto means less and less as the people i hold them against mean less and less.

Because while being right is my Leonine speciality there is no joy in this rightness.

There's also no sadness because it's not about feeling anything but getting the stupid to stop . And frankly since most of their taget audience I knwo couldn't pick em out of a line up or know them as famous for pissing off folks and or picked up and put em down REAL quick I'm okay

Like there is a whole set of articles where in the ideas around them are so crisp and clean and clear and so fun to engage with cause the thinking around it the analysis the actual meat of the commentary is so just really fucking good.

about what we want and what we would and should center


and it was based around a shitty dumb and kind of stupid offensive article by [name redacted] .

Typical entitled white girl bullshit internet style. Click any of the previous links you'll find out who it is , it's seriously me just not wanting to aid in the marketing of self right now.

But then I saw Hair after getting a wee bit sloshed with my friend ( one of my hearts and a " white " girl I guess ) and talking about what i wanted to do

and it was more than anything about teaching and work

and MOVEMENT you know? and I could get furious about it and will on tumblr ( mwah hahah) but I was more happy at people TALKING and thinking and MOVING

actual movement. and in my case a lot of it theoretical and teaching but directed to MOVEMENT.

Not packaging

because I saw hair and got told to stay down by a tourist because he couldn't see ( not that he cared if I could see)

because I had too much HAIR

PLEASE LAUGH cause I had too and reflexively for the first half I DID stay down

but my friend reminded me I get to see too.

adn at the end of hair there is a huge dance party on stage a large moment where you have abandon and dance and sweat and it's supposed to be and is this glorious exuberant moment.

and while staring at ace young's freakishly in shape abdomen it hit me.

I found what I saw beautiful . It was it was beautiful and cherish able and wonderful. (Dear lanky ass white boy in red shirt , and older blonde woman in scoop neck . I kind of love you both)

What I didn't find beautiful was that it cost on average about $60 a pop to see that moment, to have that moment and not feel like you're doing something illegal , or to have to feel you must " accept" feeling unsafe , or that you have to feel like you NEED to dress a certain way to have access to it.

and that their is some sort of shame or reason to be tutted if you don't recognize ART AS IT IS TOLD TO YOU ( or CHANGE...) because you might have to actually live.

And it's why I don't want to be an

ACTOR

PERFORMER

SINGER

WRITER

BLOGGER

PERSONALITY

I do all those things I will do them happily for money ( shit I'm writing this as a cleanse before a artist statement so I can do this in grad school)

but I don't ever want to be the person wondering in a tiny ass room, or a theatre or on just this blog or that tumblr if I have the right package to make a change safe guarding and refusing to examine a history because I don't like consequences

THAT STILL isn't elucidated or is so pie in the sky no one understands it and then congratulated like AREN'T WE SMART

( and can I say dealing with Black issues as a woc and women's issues as woc . I find this to be my current feelings.Black "leaders" have concrete views I often disagree with. Women's leaders have views where the substance is so light I can't find anything to disagree with at all)

It's not about granting permission for peopel to become your next consumer audience. It's definitely not about trying to figure out how your privacy and life can be best marketed by producing stupid ad copy . Cause you have a new ( same) book that will once again SPEAK for YOUNG WOMEN / BLACK PEOPLE/ SEX POSITIVITY etc.... in the same over privileged halogen rules while you justify your right to be next in a long line of opportunistic psuedo theorists

It's about making it plain about pushing it forward

I don't want to be however well paid someone's permission /leader
( that hurt my heart so bad not because it's wrong but because shit what are we doing to each other that we think adding another layer of people we should " get permission from" is good and a noble thing to aim for ?! and that someone feels or is taught a movement is narrow they need it? and peopel are building " careers off of feeding that type of insecurity)

I want to be a movement's member, someones partner ,even inspiration
to be there wonderful amazing selves and on that road I will be mine.

And no that doesn't need a name brand , or a degree or a tagline but a LOVE a fierce and deep LOVE

and a statement

so i guess that's next

Take us home NINA( my patron saint) and Hair ( the push of this thought)

I'm in your Ivy deconstructing you privileges

I am Ivy League educated

and I'm trying to get back for my Masters/PHD

but I often ( and this is my privilege talking ) forget that my political/intellectual/personal journey is fraught with rejecting certain ideas only because I have gotten close to them

Not close enough to ever have the illusion I could belong but close enough to see them in action

let's get this out of the way.

These places are privilege and entitlement incubators and frankly they are a perfect model for online ( which might be why so many theory based writers my ass included are connected to em)

If you go to one of these vaunted institutions you will ( and I have ) spend most of your time being told ( if you the " right kind" ) how IMPORTANT and NECESSARY and SPECIAL your opinions are

WHile you are expected to contribute ( usually in the form of your parents endowment or some other application of privilege that you have been told was an actual skill of your's) most of your education is about networking and creating connections to the other future leaders of the world not America but the world.

The heavy lifting will be done by the scholarship kids , the select brains and committed ones, non privileged students of color and a small handful of non upper class white kids who will distinctly regardless of how hard they work will continually get the impression that they are there for the "improvement" of the ruling class in exchange for an education, their sanity at hopes of striking the lottery to become a member

While your parents pay for trips abroad , tutoring and lessons etc etc . They will have work study volunteering, special projects and independent studies while trying to negotiate the death triangle that is getting ahead or even staying afloat.

And should they falter or misstep you will be viewed as completely justified for isolating them , disparaging or questioning their success , when much of your time is spent in secret or out in the open as members of lazy, entitled secret societies , or having the privilege to out study or out work because you never have to worry about your bills.

Any activities studies , or clubs that benefit them will be seen as subversive, come with the price of grinning and bearing your insults and judgment, or being consistently reminded how at your mercy they are .

Should you do ANYTHING at all that isn't cashing in on your legacy you will be lauded above and beyond .

And should any of those people point it out trust there are enough of them willing to rephrase your fuck ups or make nice to make sure you never get dirty no matter what the cost.

So if I may be an evil grudge bearing twit for a bit .

I remain and I will fully acknowledge this is my own privilege speaking,

un shocked by any of the developments in the Stephanie Grace case.

That a group of Harvard Students probably all white had a discussion about race where in someone's assertion that blacks maybe genetically inferior was not only honored but was followed up with an open email. In which a WOMAN jokingly asked not to be Larry Summered

After a dinner in which she and others discussed their CLASSMATES like lab rats. The upsetting part is the email;?!?!

I am even less shocked that it came about because of a vendetta . In which the person who set this in motion has expressed essentially the same opinion but in print with her name attached, essentially using racism as a pawn in an Iago like machination to get a rival " in trouble".

When you are committed to power prestige and winning at all cost it's what you do, the question is never if but simply when.

And that's why ( nad here's the part where I am an evil wench whose a meanie)

I am while in theoretical agreement here and here .

I remain completely unimpressed and have my own level of bile at it.

Because Jill's response reads GREAT if you have no idea about some of her own history and how it plays in really well with what actually being in these rarefied spaces is.

While Jill may speak about ONE part of the White Person Code ( and lets be real here Certain Class of People of Color code) what she kind of leaves out is that part of the Code ESPECIALLY in elite spaces like law school is what I call

SetPoint.

which is that while in THEORY all racism /sexism etc is bad. There is a SetPoint at which I will actually activate my desire to do or say things about it. Especially among social circles that SetPoint becomes very HIGH and it is only when it will burn my ass do i actually activate it. and that activation of the set point usually only goes as far as to point out how bad someone else is to me or as Ilyka says here:

Maybe, too, this helps me understand why I tend to react worse to white progressive racism than I do to conservative racism: So often in white progressive circles I see racism framed as a moral issue. Don’t get me wrong—it IS a moral issue. It’s obviously wrong to discriminate and oppress people of color. It’s a human rights outrage. I would say the same for misogyny, ableism, homophobia, etc. But I seldom see the conversation move beyond the morality frame, and in fact it usually goes straight to “and THAT’S why we’re such better white people than these other white people.” Cue the smug!

It also doesn't tell you about the straight up narcissism that renders even the most basic actions of human awareness and decency REVOLUTIONARY.Because even though you know and speak WPC , you ALSO figure it to be the consistent and vaunted language of privilege and inherently non malicious till you can see blatant imagery as racist or you don't see it at all or even empathize with other human beings in the most mundane of ways.

So while Jill find's THIS instance of defending racist thought's deplorable she has and continues to excuse (if notout right support others) because they do not meet her SetPoint.

or we shouldn't bring it up because this time trumps other's .

Another interesting facet to me is that having been online for five years ( EEP!!) is that people seem to be wearing thin on patience NOW for people who defend racism who were earlier saying well this is how you play the game.

Another facet of the SetPoint in class based intra POC dialogue is the assumption that radicalness is a sign of defieciency in access ,education , or networking airs.

Considering most famous radicals actually begin in academia and are very VERY well educated HISTORICALLY not just in the blogosphere, it becomes a bit of a shell game. Where in the radicals are played as simple unsophisticated bumpkins or angry meanies while positioning the cool sophisticated not that angry POC as visionaries with a talent for speaking .

Much of which is filtering the radical position ,cosmology and historiography in palatable ( and often pablum ) versions for the audience of "slightly less" racist white people / slightly less classist middle class POC ( Rage of the Privileged Class party of 3!)

But as the girl who set this email free KNEW are a great scare tactic because mobilized radicals who don't "do anything" because they aren't " worth anything" ( mind you radical means anyone who might honestly cause even a little of discomfort)

tend to have really sophisticated ways of disseminating information and networks. They tend to be unforgiving because

THEY HAVE SPENT LOT'S OF TIME being shut out and watching these networks in action

and while moderates or " acheivers" advocate temperment or learning time , much of it isn't about actual situational improvement but a belief that contrasting radicals they will earn a place at the metaphorical table,and the cognitive dissonance is worth it

So that when the fact chumminess and shared cocktails don't lead to the promised " learning" community building there is this (faux) carrying the banner while seemingly being unable to find anyone who mentioned this before, or constructing them as falllen weak comrades who couldn't stand up to the pressure as well as they could.

SetPoint in this case is time more than level but still same principle.

So how does this playout , well let's see Stephanie Grace good or ill is a LAW REVIEW SCHOLAR who is a eugenicist who got more play than the BHLSA for sending an email saying in private what the person who outed her said in public.

White people who cotton on to the idea that yeah at this level this might be sufficiently racist to see get lauded for finding their human decency THIS time

and not once ( YET) has a black law students of which I know one WHOLE BLOG about not to mention a COUPLE OF BOOKS) been fully considered.

or as a Diana Grace who points out something that Jill missed with Amanda's shenanigans or Feministings continued ones but half got this time anybody who speaks Ivy and or law school or any other privileged space while not being privileged .

Is that the point is not how good or bad life is for Stephanie Grace but that people who think like her now have degrees and " rational thinking theories" and huge methods of validations for their racism classism , and other isms.

But the repeated knowledge that the system , the friends , the sisterhood, the bar etc etc

has each other's back

and while you may want to change , or even just to eat or learn or study

You are NOT part of teh club and you will sit and listen to tehm tell you how great that club is.

And those of us subject to it have to depend on the hope that maybe this time people who we have watched let a whole bunch of shit that continually lays the foundation for crap like this to STAY IN THE CLUB ( or by the damn door)reach a set point where they'll do something about it.


but you know they have finally reached their SetPoints!

and this time it didn't involve a cartoon or race party.

PROGRESS!!!!

Guess how hopeful we are.