The sad thing is I still got to work on time.

I may have cost a woman her job today.

Because we were poor and brown and I couldn't afford even ten dollars.

My local train just stopped working dumped an entire train full of people with no directions out into the street.

I thought I could split a cab until thre prices for the cab were between thirty and fifty dollars. ( mind you from anywhere in Manhattan to JFK is $40) and all I had was twenty.

She worked in a hotel , doing service labor and COULD NOT BE LATE.

I work in a slightly more skilled position and called my job, who let me know thanks to those skills I'd be okay.

Which meant that the little money I had did not have to go to teh worlds most overexpensive cab ride, or a cheap cab ride in someones car

or helping the lady get to her job on time.

Even as she was saying she would pay nearly thirty of it

because frankly having to juggle and call bill collectors who are laying the ahmmer on me EVEN THOUGH THEY CANT SPELL MY NAME RIGHT

and not having time to grocery shop so needing to overspend on food

I didn't have it

and where we were where the subway is the ONLY WAY IN

this is the shit that bugs me out about things like the post below.

Feelings and self worth are important enough to stop time

if it's a white person

but us we're supposed to be put in only out for ourselves scraps hustling always hustling

but you don't think I or anybody else wants to not be an asshole or not be out for number one
like we don't want ways of aiding ourselves

but hey
this will be believed only after your appropriate white person writes it.

I left her thirty minutes in when the train ran again.

Still searching for a cab less than half my days pay.