Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Ann Nixon Cooper, Michelle,and my Chakramachete

I think it's official.

I don't think that I am going to be able to talk about the First Lady without hearing the theme from Xena Warrior Princess and having an urge to reach for chakram and machete.

When I watched , well semi watched I fell asleep for an hour so missed most of the drama, election night one thing TRULY struck me about President Elect Obama's Speech was the fact that he chose to tell the story of America through the eyes of Ann Nixon Cooper .


A president elect had talked about a woman of color not as a demographic, not as an object not as a tool to be used , but an agent and experience of history. That the idea of America being ( even if I don't always agree with it or him) able to prove itself through the eyes of a black woman especially after this election, an election where women of color were treated so poorly in the guise of getting their votes.

And we all heard that cheer when he announced Michelle Obama as the Lady .

That there was the sistahs. And that wasn't every sista but the SISTAHS. That was every WOC who had ever been told she asked for too much in a partner. That was every woman of color who was told she was good to have around but would never be a part of the group, that was every sistah who WASN'T jack and jill, who wasn't ideal be it by paper bag or video girl, that was every black woman who had the audacity to be grown. That was every woman who had sat through CNN,Newsweek ,BET, and self published black relationship expert saying she was asking to much and would be single forever cause all the brothers were taken or in prison. That was every woman who had any kind of personal standard not only for her self but her life .

However even as these women for one shining moment made themselves heard , and in one speech were actually valued by no less than the future President of the United States and SPECIFICALLY how much that president valued his wife, a black woman, the reception and reality of black women and Michelle Obama specifically has been tokenized commercialized and subsumed to answer a " greater question"

For a woman who for MUCH of this campaign was shunted aside in feminist discourse for the more identifiable figures ( to white women) of Hillary Clinton and Sara Palin her future role as the First Lady seems to leave many scrambling to " explain her" in terms that are comforting and familiar.Because the reality is that even NOW the belief is that is unless their identity is in service to some greater goal the actual lived experiences of black women, and you better believe that doesn't stop even for the wife of the soon to be " leader of the free world"

There was little to no in depth support of Michelle Obama as a woman. I charge you for EVERY single " Hillary Clinton Sexism Watch" please note how long it took for a Michelle Obama Watch to be started, also note how quickly the Michelle Obama Watch was replaced once Sara Palin was announced as a candidate and there were PUMA's or right wingers to chastise. Even after the default " discussion" was to point to Michelle Obama Watch and magically avoid speaking about the reasons the Watch got started , namely when in time of great distress and in NEED of real thoughtful committed support to a woman whose life was in constant danger, was passed off to SOMEONE ELSE.

And still the question was how women of color had not done enough, in terms of speaking out against sexism, even though the speaking out has magically stopped when it came to WOC.

The president- elect's speech achieved something that subsequent news coverage and editorial seems to completely have missed by a whole swath of people.

WHile President-Elect Obama seems more than comfortable regarding WOC and SPECIFICALLY black women as agentsparticipating in history capable of using their own life experiences to make choices that are respectable and their choices alone, it seems teh rest of the media...

missed the memo completely.


While the piece above annoys me on multiple levels, it is the psuedo enlightment that gets me most. Traister mentions that MIchelle's blackness is " scarier" than Hillary's womanhood but includes no analysis and in a way I find disingenious and pretty apalling cheerfully throws it to the " mainstream media" the way Michelle Obama is being covered.

Mind you this same mainstream media has more so than Traister at any point in the article ( except for lipservice to her two daughters, even her conjecture at Michelle's opinions are filtered through BARACK Obama's book ) , seems willing to recognize the significance of Michelle Obama to teh OBama campaign and now presidency.

However my barely contained fury at this coverage?

Comes from the fact that the same experience being lamented and brandished about as not good enough for Feminism as performed by Michelle Obama

was consider solid enough for Hillary to run on, but paltry for Michelle Obama. Paltry enough that Traister and Steve Kroft 60 Minutes can with clear conscience met out questions about whether an Ivy League educated ( two times)knows her own mind enough to be hapy with raising he rown children.

It is a fury that stems not just from the condescension masquerading as journalism, but from the myopic perception of women that has become accepted that allows this to be considered "searching". It is an odious double standard that subsumes Michelle Obama as WOC into a debate that has " raged within feminism of mommyhood versus career and choice versus social pressure

That MIRACULOUSLY ( every week or so) is based on an Amnesia of the actualities of work and family in the history of WOC. That the option of work being a thing unknown to black women in the US ESPECIALLY CONCERNING CHILDCARE. Since the work for the child work or office work debate is ousourced to WOC , let me not even start into hard on that insulting demands here of what Michelle needs to be because it twists the knife for other women on the basis that stay at home moming is a "white" thing or desire

Because let us all remember that while white women get to make choices, Women of color MUST remmber to serve as symbols. It is more insulting because while WOC concerns are OFTEN ( looks over her internet history ) subsumed for discussions of how to be a feminist in a hetereosexual ( white ) relationship, and a constant call to embrace the choices white women make in that debate, a WOC of color is not allowed that latitude.

OR as Wifey says:

michelle,strong black woman,is supposed to be working, and she has worked hard and been successful in career terms,or her to go "i'm going to be a WIFE and MOTHER",that's for the white ladies to do,how are white women going to have their successful career minded ideal
or any "independent" ideal if they don't have a brown woman upholding it? white women like to have images in their minds of strong, independent women who don't "need" men
who can support themselves but how many white women are actually going after that on their own?

Rebecca Walker's response to Michelle Obam makes a crazy notion available . Absolutely nutty. That Michelle OBama is living a life that in being her own is not being lived to fulfill other women's ( often racist and a historic desires of her) but I disagree that this is a secondwave writhing death.

This is what happens when people who have formed an entire idealism out of ignoring shunting or idolizing but never humanizing black women. This is what happens when the third wave and the loud and overproud non mainstream reveals itself to have no real difference in it's consideration of these women.

Because Anna Nixon Cooper isn't important enough , and Michelle Obama is only important if she is a symbol instead of a woman.

Because even if the President to Be Of the United States values her judgement and choices, as a black woman we don't unless their ours.









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Friday, November 14, 2008

Delux I had to preface

White people please stop trying to explain to other white folks what Obama means to black folks.


White women please PLEASE PLEASE stop talking about the sadness of Michelle Obama being a "mom" first, in the context of feminism when you haven't a gad damn clue on what that means in teh context of her being African American and teh meanings of work outside the home as one , and sweet minty Christmas don't say her being black is extra scary and think it makes you erudite without explaining it. Oh that's right you don't know because you can't be assed to SHUT UP for ten minutes and listen to more than three black people before being an expert.

Also the rush to save ass is transparent and sad but please please please stop carrying the banner as defenders of the woman's everydamn move. She's human and needs to be treated as such. An icon is still a servant

Brown folks I know Prop 8 was dissapointing but please if you want to ( which I think is necessary)talk about homophobia in our specific communities please please PLEASe use something that involves , real life experience, data that is maybe not the worlds flimsiest exit poll, and if you happen to be straight have a coke and a smile and a sit the fuck down.

Gay people mostly the smae but once again not a POC please don't pontificate . Also I may be alone in this but I get why you'd be dissapointed . I don't agree , I don't comisserate but the disappoint ment the frustration and the anger are yours and your right. We can build coalitions through your honest emotions , but random privilege fueled blaming . Yeah no

And while i think think they cuter than baby puppies and starshine I'm a need less voyuerism on them lil girls

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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

RIP Duanna Johnson

Really I got nothing

I really have nothing at this point

If you have something, please let me know . Something that isn't calling the people who are fumbling her murder investigation.

Something that isn't the skin crawling cringe at the description of this woman like she was an end table and the constant references to her "lifestyle" like it comes out of the blue

Something that isnt deep mediattions on sadness of it all while ignoring LGBTQ voices in teh steets doing teh work and telling you what is needed

Something that isn't condemning form lofty perches the peopel who try to help when they have nothing while those who have everything do nothing.

If you got anything but that right now I sure could use some.

RIP Ms. Johnson
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Friday, November 07, 2008

I May Have Lost My Rebate But My Machete She is Found

I am cranky getting over the flu

and on the phone with the IRS

so were gonna excuse me as I be very VERY damn blunt about this in very not nice language.

CUT THE STUPID FUCKING BULLSHIT

1) because it is well bullshit. Designed not to incite , create , activate, or actively critique , ANYTHING in any way that is at all substantive, useful or even remotely intelligent.
2) because the thing this type of " thinking claims to support is actual

Now I would have kept my ass out of it originally because so many interesting and nuanced and less hotheaded people have dropped science:

LA Macha - Vivir Latino

ProfBW

Ilyka

Kevin


Joan Kelly

but no the stupid it must burn hot and bright.

Because you knwo what as a veteran of the feminist/prog/netroots wars ( puts on older stateswoman hat and hopes it matches her bib)

The dumbshit has to stop.

Frankly because it passed I am so over the because we need to be better people Kumbaya, but because WE ACTUALLY WANT TO GET SHIT DONE.

That blathering piece of entitled claptrap ( and WHY DAN SAVAGE WHY YOU TOO)

Heres what erebody is having a hard time learning but is gonna have to get on QUICK ( and I am allowing that for why I don't reunleash the machete and just make ten word posts)

Is that the common tactic of appealing to CERTAIN people (white middle class and affluent) on measures that REQUIRE MASS APPROVAL doesn't work.

truefax I know it's hard but this presumption of POC support through some alchemical knowledge of oppresion while avoiding things like presenting them with facts and useful relevant dialogue while somehow forgiving white people many of them AFFLUENT with more access for this and WORSE transgressions and then proceding to funnel an OBSCENE amount of money towards "educating and agitating" them

in addition to being ridiculously privileged

is also ridiculously dumb.


It is the height of privilege to think anybody owes you ass becuase you'll be a benevolent ally and ruler .

ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU"RE ASKING FOR THEIR VOTE

and really the lessons have been coming HARD and FAST this year .

You can NOT take for granted POC ( when not outright sterotyping and INSULTING em) and then need them and wring your hands without actual PLANNING TO OUTREACH BETTER.

And contrary to everyones first and bad instincts when it comes to each issue this is not "JUST LIKE" anything

It is intertwined iwth lots of things but not as the resident nice white lady and her resident compatriots think. It is intertwined with white privilege, trans invisibility , ablism and the long history of fuck ups and successes by various members of communities.

What's more amusing , these random idiocies and pronunciations

ARE ON QUESTIONABLE DATA

but let's not truly notice why everybody lets the corresponding conclusions slide

( once more with GUSTO)

but the facts

When YES on Prop 8 was on teh ground in communities of color for MONTHS, No on PRop 8 had celebrities.

When POC were fighting for NO on Prop 8 in communities their support from THE SAME PEOPLE who are maligning POC communities

was NEGLIGIBLE

and no I don not accept taht people can't get it.

cause miraculously people do

and I want peopel to get it.

Not because it makes me feel good

but because for real the spread of ny intolerance is a problem

But it is a problem taht needs solutions,. dialogue that needs something FUCK ING NEW

and the same ain't never worked before and is failing now

( oh you thought that Cali was liberal and good and wouldn't get you even as they overturned AA and became violently anti immigrant? WHOOPS)

is exactly the LAST FUCKING THING WE NEED

and what is really NOT needed

is one more gain

standing by while that ish goes unchallenged

white women asking dumb ass navel gazing idiotic questions about women when they mean THEMSELVES (yes Obnama's presidence is inspiring to me NOW what)

and that thing we need is work

it means we may have to all take our collective asses in realtion to yes POC matter and what happens to our neighbors matters and if we want happens to us to matter to them we might could get the lead out for we all looking around going WHAT HAPPENED?

and in case anybody wondered the NAACP

Voted NO ( one of the first groups to do so)

and AZ and FL banned gay marriage and Nebraska banned Afirmative Action

so yes there is work to be done

but this hot mess of clinging to privilege with a death grip and swearing it could never happen to you.

swearing that you don't have to work or think cause " those peopel know what it's like"

Yeah that's not it.
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Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Can't think after yet

I am mad you said it.

Girl sweet jesus girl .

I am crying because

For the first time I believe I can live.

I cried because you said it, I cried because I live it.

I am crying because I feel it.

I cry because people have been telling me I was gonna die for this mouth since I was seven years old.

Because that's what you told mouthy lil black girls and boys, for so long.

Because every hero I ever had that looked like me , that didn't perform,or shoot hoops , or deal in some commerce of the body

At the very least Took a beating , that was just part of the game.

And if you were a black man,

a Malcolm

A Medgar

A Martin

that if you got real good at it , if you truly became one who put your love of god,you love of your people, your love OF THIS COUNTRY THIS FUCKED UP IN SO MANY WAYS, that wrote you into the constitution as 3/5 of a man even as you BUILT THIS ON YOUR BACK BEFORE HALF OF TEHM FOLKS WERE EVEN ON THIS SIDE OF THE EARTH?!?!?!?

THIS COUNTRY

that if you loved it enough to hold it truly accountable , to believe it could truly live up to the promise , if you said that out loud if you said it in any way that was eloquent and intelligent, that was heartfelt that moved people ESPECIALLY BLACK PEOPLE

You were t shirt fodder, for paintings in the living room, but for a life

Not for you.

When this started , even in the primaries, part of the hurt , that infuriated me so wasn't just my fury at the general dumb that is white folk talking bout race, and proper order of firsts

But the fact that everyone WAS COMFORTABLE that he was threatened with death

EVERY DAY

Because in THIS COUNTRY that's what we do to black men

We're not mean to them

We don't just stack the deck against them

WE TRY TO KILL THEM

They just gotta deal with it.

That while this important "first" was being dealt with on one side as what was owed

People was praying he didn't win cause

They couldn't take it.

THEY BELIEVED IN HIM ,THE BELIEVED HE WAS BEST

and they KNEW

they KNEW in their hearts the country they live in the only country they EVER LIVED IN would

KILL HIM

forget not letting him win

forget being cruel to him

KILL HIM

but we go on. BEcause that's all we know to d o.

I have only been in this ocuntry for ONE GENERATION

and I KNOW.

We learned it in our bones.

Imagine those for CENTURIES AND CENTURIES

and oh god oh god

to listen to talk to be apart to criticize to disagree to love to hate

and to know that everyone almost everyone who did any of those things

STILL end it in their hearts with A PRAYER

because we KNEW

and still AS A PEOPLE

eternal canaries in a coal mine.

Only by faith

every victory making it harder to fight this dream

every good campaign decision breaking your heart

Dear God

Bless him Jehovah

Allah

Mother Earth

Yahweh

OBEAH

ANCESTORS ALL

please don't grant us another picture.

Please not another Myrlie

Not another Coretta

not another going back till that ship on that sea woman rocking now fatherless children

Not another beautiful " strong black woman" punished by lonliness for loving a man trying to be good. Not another group of brothers in tears kicking themselves because they FELL FOR IT THIS TIME AGAIN. That they believed that this time work would pay off

We prayed for it,chanted lit candles

and it seems like it snuck up on us.

No one envisioned an obama presidency, not the way we talked about gore or clinton

not that way

because hey 2000,2004

and then last night

sweet jesus

oh ancestors

you mean I get to look at little black boys and say

You don't have to be SOMEBODY

an abstract idea

because NOBODY

actually got to live to see it

Baby you can be PRESIDENT

I get to tell lil black girls some one will call you the love of their life for being you and being smart

to be VIOLENT at the mere thought of people even pretending they knew enough struggle to be " post racial"

to read this condescending over familiar cooption

and KNOW THATS WHAT THIS NEEDED

to not even to understand why you so mad.

and then realize you ain't mad

You so scared

That this this moment you NEVER BELIEVED that you never thought could happen that the man on the scooter in the oxygen mask

this moment even if you don't agree politically

even if you expect to be let down

that when you come from people that EVERYDAMN Thing you did was by faith alone

and that WAS ALL YOU COULD ASK FOR

and now

now faith made this

to realize how small this pain has made your dreams. That at the dawn

at this moment

you don't even know how to ask for anything else

But please

Please sweet jesus

please

please who ever is listening

right now

don't take it away.
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Monday, November 03, 2008

A letter back.

IF it's okay my love I'd like to answer your awesome lowercase contemplating with my own badly spelled contemplating.

My first reaction to your post was she's right damn it . She is.

And my second . I DON'T LIKE THE FACT SHE IS RIGHT

And my third ( don't laugh you have the ADD too , you know there were like four others happening simultaneously allow me the pleasant fiction of linear thought)

Why am I mad she's right?

Okay I am furious your right.

It feels like a confession or a up at an addicts meeting but I am furious.

And then you had the nerve to be right again

I haven't accepted it because that's to the way I am allowed BY MYSELF to perceive success.

For me the belief that an education would " fix" my/our lives was as much a part of my birthright as my height.

And I more than ANYBODY should KNOW better. Hasn't it always been thus? Please proceed to work your ass off in ways that often leave you upright by sheer naked force of WILL and still be shunted.

I am violently angry

WITH MYSELF.

I honestly had hope.

This election/year has dismayed me in ways I can not begin to truly deal with until I admit how so very emotional distraught I am by it. Which of course makes you right

There is no feminist movement to speak of and even LESS of a liberal progressive movement and to watch as people be smug about it

I find it so hard to separate from my anlytical brain to deal with this hurt.

and the bus analogy is SO PERFECT.

Crying weeping so sorry's , I'LL BE BETTER SOME DAY, I NEED TIME TO LEARN

but I'll be dmaned if I miss that 2:45 to kyriarchy .

Do you know how often I get in REAL LIFE not this blogshit that mess?

What it's like to read people you consider your peers people who have acess to being able to teach and aid and do the work you'd give an eye tooth for ( but don't have that parental health insurance or back up shit I'm trying to see if I can con my health insurance into taking my mom as my +1)

To hear people wax " funny" about saying shit like "drink the koolaid" ( no seriously little children killed, non participants murdered and used to judge a country that was barely involved thanks to inbred American racism and laxness) like it's not one of teh few things in your life you have ever seen make your mother truly existentially sad.

Can I scream about How no one said a damn thing as Gloria Steinem called them stupid and went right back to being enamored of her the miute she started attacking another woman? And taht's progress. OR how no one NO ONE seems as excited to pump Professor HArris for her follow up thoughts as tehya re about Steinems continuing contemtable noblesse oblige.

Fuck blogs where was EVERYBODY?

Where was everybody when Hillary was in the race and Maureen ODowd regularly decided to give white woman advice on Michelle Obama. Where was every fucking body when CNN regularly talks about Black women.

Where were black women who weren't crack addicts but also not JackandJill middle class strivers?

I walk into the street everyday and am commented on and appraised, criticized and told how to behave for breathing?

But I don't exist.

I read you and listen to Adele anbd see Nadia's work and chase babies around my neighborhood and NOTHING.

Where was everyone ? Speaking about teh role of WOC in their lives as scholars, as students, mother , lovers

ON THE BUS. Rolling over our asses.

Because somehoe this became THE MOVEMENT, this rush to be the most credit , least offensive most sought after cog in the machine ?

but honestly

I am upset because I FELL for it AGAIN. I fell for this , I fell for the idea that people weren't actually this clalous with our lives, that maybe you know I do need that masters cause I'll be respected more treated better, that there is a common ground.

I want it to be done, the smug facebook messages about how I can do MORE, the "sincere" apologies, the " they need more time"s, the emptier and emptier bullshit, the selective memories.

knowing that come tomorrow and teh day after we will once again be the crazy people who take it tooseriously once the sheen wears off.

and I frankly have immersed my self so much im not sure how to get out.

But that may be the first step, admitting you want out?

and you hold me up everyday

Amour,

Sydette
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