What I want for 2009 is conscious(ness) building.

I am writing this on very little sleep and with trembling fingers , because I don't understand how

THIS is okay.

I don't .

I am listening to Nadia and I don't understand.

Retraction .

I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND.

I want to understand and it occurs to me

No one understands .

Because you have to admit that people are worth understanding, and that their life is worth preserving.

The coverage leaves me in tears, in actual tears and comments on Sylvia's and on Feministe's

For 2009 can we stop ?

Can we stop pretending we know what's happening?

Can we stop pretending we have enough information?

Can we stop pretending that these threads that are squeezing in tighter, our indifference, our insanity , our greed, our wrath, our power lust, as us to justify the unfucking justifiable.

Can we STOP believing that history stops right at the point it makes what we did "right" and instead breathes and moves ans is bigger than just proving our point since it is written in Blood.

I'm tired of people being funny. I'm tired of people dying being completely rationalizeable.

I'm tired of peopel being to afraid to even SAY to peopel being cruel . YOU KNWO WHAT SHUT UP ! SHUT TEH FUCK UP!

THIS IS NOT FUNNY!

I am tired of well you elected a bad government being an excuse to harm EVERYONE BUT THE US!

or maybe I need for one minute peopel trying to tell me that a baby who cant find its fingers and toes yet.

Deserves to die to get to someone else.