Why is it OUR problem?

This was originally intended to be a comment on Racialicious about Addicted to Race Podcast 77

Then I read Vox ex Machina.

Who swung me by Magniloquence

Then I read Ebogjohnson ( who basically hit such a trifecta of awesome I can't even respond just a Ron Simmons like DAMN)

Then Kai who rocks at the awesomeness I worry about him hurting himself at times

Finish it up with a dose of the Nezua

And lets have a flashback to the vacationing Sudy



And commence the spiraling of my thoughts like my twists.

The thing that I found myself concentrating on about the podcast , as well is the cluster fuck of privilege that was Jane Hamsher's , and atrios , something that has been igging me for a while about the way that sort of question is posed is

Why is this MY problem?

Feminism wants to represent "women"and many many women of color feel it fails.

Left "it" bloggers want to represent the progressive space many many bloggers of color ,allies, opponents, people with eyes, and most folks who can read at a third grade level give them a HUGE failing mark.

So why is the question always phrased as if the problem is with those who feel unrepresented?

Why is it that me being a sentient human being having some consciousness of my own desires always presented like I must be working through some demons, or have some jealousy?

Why is ebog asked to keep an open mind because he can be enlightened?

Why are grown ass folks asked to subliminate themselves to the greater cause? And why are those folks always brown?

It would be one thing if these movements materials, events weren't tripping over themselves to be representative

But they are.

And they are failing horribly so why is it constantly though of as OUR problem.

HOW come we don't hear:

Why has feminism been so unappealing to women of color?

Why has liberal politics failed so miserably at at adequately addressing race to ANYONE"S satisfaction?

Why do so professed liberals seem to only actually ask these questions around press time?

Why is their common response to be as smug as possible then disappear ?

Why is it okay to browbeat people of color publicly and reconcile privately?

My last big let's get into fight was May , and most should know what that was about and frankly I ain't about to reiterate it , as I am finally at the point where I don't cry and grind my teeth.

It caused me to give up writing as I hoped to drive my hit count DOWN.

( Speaking of which Black Amazon is BROKE as in won't you help her Paypal as in next week is straight fundrasing week and point her to temp agencies in NYC )


Yep me who is broke and hoping to be a freelance writer would have rather tanked my hit count than deal with the pure shit that came from "progressives"

How interesting that these pleas and rejoinders for community and rebuilding are always made not on the sites of those who complain but on larger sites WITHOUT REFERENCE TO THE ORIGINALS or the commentary of anybody not connected to LARGE newsmedia or blogs?

OR that as soon as people sprinkle in a lil more color this move to be more diverse kind of blows over til the next brouhaha or photo op?

OR that that it is always phrased as POC are trying to drum interest even when white folks concerned posts sometimes aren't a good ten percent of our ACTUAL POSTS?

Meanwhile the discussions of the sudden interest in us by "white liberals " tend to coincide with 1) media opportunities : Nez's interpretation of the blog furor cause they weren't treated like press should earn him the nickname Nostranezua

2) hit count issues

3) need for blogging funds by the LARGER blogs? while the smaller ones do a version of lateral paypal movement that while heartening is in no way indicative of teh supposed attention mongering they get accused of?

Considering the confusion if not straight up disgust SO MANY DIFFERENT FOLKS feel.

To the point many of us once confronted with the white liberal juggernaut can never EVER feel comfortable again, or LITERALLY HAVE TO GO LIE DOWN

While those who chastise us get national media coverage and/or six figure salaries.

So how is our not being involved OUR problem ?

I am not out there looking for NOW ( which reads me and while I have no problem could somebody say hello that shit is kind of disturbing to be silent all the time) , I am not part of the campaign to be more inclusive to white folk make squares of my salary. I doubt Ebog is part of the "How do I make Jane Hamsher pay me more attention like her black face ads and half cocked apologies" club.

They are looking for US.

And what any person whose done any customer service will tell you , if you want loyal customers you give them better service.

Which they aren't .

So either they don't really want us

OR

They want s but on their terms.

Either way

How is this OUR problem?