Don't Include me

I started and stopped about three posts

cause I didn't want to admit it.

One monologue. And I didn't even cry damn it!

I coughed a lot. Shook shivered

Kind of vomited but sure it didn't get me.

I was DETERMINED to float on the river in EGYPT

I showed you the character sketch but it struck while I was performing.

What I was talking about could only happen to a women of color and more specifically a black woman.

While people prayed for her soul and the like , the degradation the exhibition

TO THIS DAY

RIGHT NOW

AS WE SPEAK

ONLY HAPPENS TO POC.

To prove I am a mother.

I must be groped

To exercise our right to run for office

We need the earliest Secret Service detail....... IN HISTORY

And Our Allies

Well look at em.

They will argue with us about our tone, and call on us to support them

and twiddle their thumbs when it is OUR LIVES.

Abortion,

How many of the women who are gnashing their teeth over partial birth bans have ever known the danger that it holds when it comes form the fact

YOU DON'T have proper health care?

Nezua and BFP and Yolanda Carrington have covered it beautifully

But I think I want to take it one step further

Don't fucking include me.

Don't just don't so it.

Day late dollar short just don't include me.

When you stand and recount how people bought and sold parts of you and how hard it is for you to stand up and jsut say these words aloud.

And you realize you get chided for your anger more than acknowledged for your truth.

How naked and scary that is.

To watch when people post on ripping babies from mothers and people worry about teh ovber indulged white girl filmmaker I sort of tweeked.

To read as we literally watch the first black man to mount a serious Presidential campaign in my life. I AM 22 years old people.

He needs to watch so predators don't take shots at his kids

He needs secret service agents WHEN HE IS BEHIND IN THE POLLS! Oh and lets remind you that he still isn't old enough to be form an era when black people had the nationwide right to vote.

and all you can worry about is whether or not it's sex or race.

or that Hillary must be getting em too right right

THERE IS A WAY IT CAN BE ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't include me

Please don't include me .

Don't deign to do me any fucking favors, when you equate the realities of me risking my life with the mere possibilities of your own discomfort.

This is officially the post Imus world .

And the Liberals look as bad as the conservatives.

They continue to believe that these conversations will be carried out on a basis that means they have to sacrifice or have nothing to lose.

Maybe that's why it turned to hip hop so quickly o r became a Community victory

Imus teaches us one thing very clearly if nothing else

It will no longer be a one sided talk.

You have the ablity to lose,

JObs favor influence.

We are watching as it slip s through fingers of accepted powers, our country.

and just realizing it now doesn't make you smart

or progressive it makes you slow

and unreliable.

Don't include me

You're not benevolent gods, or fulfilling the promise of your society by wising up

You will not include me.

You will reckon with it.

You will reckon with teh fragments of power that constantly slip out of your hands because teh smae things you never wnat done to you ( sit down be quiet be less uppity ) you do to others?

You will reckon with a policy dedicated to ma king lives unworthy

You will reckon with a consistent policy orf disregard and disrespect.

You can ignore it no matte rhow much its's screamed ,

ANd we bring it to your door.

You can be comfortable with the ones who assure they'll do it your way

or you can listen to the ones who tell you tehy won't

and tell them to be quiet
as if that lessens their anger

or simply makes you less likely to be included next time.

You will not include me

You will not pretend that you didn't watch while I suffered for you sins

It does not happen to you

It only happens to us.

But you're gonna include us?