Class,Classes,and CLASS

So this post is inspired by a post Ren made and a mt own meandering thoughts

I realize often I don't flesh out my life much and while I yell about my class a lot I haven't explicitly

Yesterday was an interesting day for me class wise.

I cussed out my moms bill collector cause we didn' t have money and they KEEP CALLING WE AINT GOT IT SIT YOUR ASS DOWN

While praying to get a job that would literally triple my income.

Meaning monetarily if it ( or the others ) goes well I would become instantly instantly middle class, thanks to my UPPER UPPER CLASS degrees.

And could pay that pesky bill.

While researching belcanto coaches and monologues for the finals .

I guess it's the snob in me that goes off when people go your just jealous.

I have been exposed to everything short of Extreme obscene has to be bathing in the blood of innocents wealth.

And that is more by personal design than anything.

I was born in Queens in a very black/Carribean town to the point that I had an accent and didn't know that white people who weren't family existed , was in every accelerated class. HAd a rough time cause I was tall , fat, Odd looking ,with a hellion of a mama.

I am part of the Prep For Prep program, a New York based program designed to take young inner city children of color with leadership and intellectual potential and put them in the independent schools of NYC and the boarding schools of New England.

I was skipped so I was doing this testing and the like at 9 years old. After completing Prep in a very middle of the road mediocre fashion. " Shes brilliant but why can't she spell or write , or do any of the basics, yet she can dissect literature with the best of em.

(Dear Prep ,

Just so you know when I was put in the middle tract english class I READ EVERY DAMN BOOK IN THE ADVANCED COURSE. Still bitter but much love in hindsight- BA)

The battle to skip me was NASTY and by nasty I mean teachers cried, channel seven was called, my mom threatened everyone she could and some folks I wish she hadn't. SO when prep introduced me around with mediocre grades, but a delightful charm , it was well accepted especially because I was so young.

My birthday is REALLY young for the grade I'm supposed to be in. As in in many of these elite mills , where i was applying to be a 7th grader I would have been a FIFTH GRADER.

My mom and I remembered the fight so shunning many of the well known are you kidding me advantage schools , we told Prep . NO HAPPS NOT GETTING PUT BACK !. Brokered and bartered I ended up at my alma, a second tier Ivy institution ( according to NY mag which really is up the private school systems but all the time).

Mind you that school which I finally was defaulted to costs roughly in total

20- 25 grand a year.

You betcha my middle and high school costs more than some colleges!

Kind a got on sorta lead stuff. Did activities was a bane to the exsistence of everyone cause I was smart as a whip, awkward as shit, a school mom, but odd and often just off.

Mind you at 16 I was a peer leader , helped interview the current headmaster and in charge of 15 year olds as a " wise elder sage".

Oh did I mention at 16 ADD in hand I was applying to college . Prep wanted all Ivies all the time to the point they made me Add some and subtract safeties . My counselor was not so sure and tried to get me to aim lower.

Applied to 11 schools. Got in 7 . Three offered full rides.

Prep let me know I was going to Penn.

which is ladies and germs 42,000 a year
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I started at SEVENTEEN and finished at 20 .

I could not vote when I started, could not drink when I graduated.

I got most of my class in class

So it is always amusing to me when people propose I may be uneducated or not grasping concepts or writing in code.

It's thinly failed elitism aimed at someone who in all seriousness.

More elite than them. IF she cared about their standards.

I hate lionizing critical thinking because I believe it to be intellectually deficient and becoming more and more useless in a multi layered global economy.

I ask the stupid often acerbic questions I do not because I'm slow but because I am a devotee of the Socratic method.

What amuses me is that for all the schooling all the class elevation none of this has been about adding something NEW to me.

Private schools will go on and on about forging new leaders but they add nothing new and in most cases they only are preparing kids to take positions decided for them LONG before they got there.

And that is the dirty secret of class. Much of it was determined before you even showed up.

It's more about the names and stamps you put on it than any actual content.
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So I made the finals of my show and if your in NEw York and want to see me both seduce and plot the down fall of the MOOR hit me up on email. I'll also let you get to see a video of me singing iwth the flu and my jiggly belly!

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So Lets call this a month of fundrasing.

I need about 600 to go to the AMC ( money for airfare registration blah blah balh )

I will do my best to cover a good chunk of it myself cause some of it is me being anal

BUT I don't knwo I have that job and work slows up in summer so while i job hunt and plot times is HARDDDDDDDDD.

And 12 days after my college roomies marriage *GASP*


I WANT TO MEET BFP soooooo

It's fundraising to send BA to AMC.

Clickketh the donation button ( also anyone whose donated recently I PROMISE I Will be sending emails tomorrow)

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SEND EM MY WAY.